toxic

what I thought we had
is not   ~
what you thought it was
or wanted it to be
like the queen of hearts
and the king of spades
our connection   ~
had a different meaning
for you   ~   than for me
and that expectation
is what has gotten
in the way   ~
of what
we once hoped for
poisoning the joy
that filled
our relationship
to the point of being
toxic   ~   as a waste dump
making the continuance
of what we now have
what it’s become
not healthy at all
for you   ~   or for me
so maybe it’s time then
we heed the warning
and just say   ~   goodbye

peace out

Words by ~Keith Alan Hamilton~

within the moon’s shadow

showing no mercy
that guiltless fog
laced
with despondency
silently
casts
the net
of its affliction
upon
the weary spirit
offering
no hope of release
only holding forth
mental
distress
of displaced
subsistence
within the
moon’s shadow
that darkness
harboring
judgments
about abnormality
triggering
a myriad of
inhibitions
with an extreme
sensitivity
to clarity
where the
rays of sun
embracing
normality dwells

“I fear if I did not explore
and accept the darkness,
I would never appreciate fully
the radiance embodying the light.”

peace out

Words by    ~Keith Alan Hamilton~

cerebral dissolution

bleak the prognosis
for a mental disposition
paralyzed
within a black hole
of melancholy
perilously
and relentlessly
pulled
down
down
by gravitational
dysfunction
void of mercy
causing this
cerebral dissolution
as if fated
to distort
and thusly bend away
if any   ~   ray of hope
that would shed light
upon the path
holding forth relief
for a predisposed mind
treading   ~   the dark side

peace out

Words by ~Keith Alan Hamilton~

a shipwrecked mind

deep down  ~   below
way   ~   way beyond
what seems
to the mind’s process
as the rational norm
for thought
~    is the not so normal
pattern for thinking
not necessarily
irrational thoughts
but those   ~
soaked in sorrow
floating aimlessly about
within a toxic
cesspool of guilt
habitually driven on
by disparaging archetypes
upon those waves
stirring the waters
of the emotional sea
~    wherein
flows the forces
of the dark side
with the predisposition
to surface a despondent
tidal wave of dejection
as if having
a sole purpose
the causing of   ~
a shipwrecked mind
~    wherefore
obscuring the way
by submersing all hope
for deliverance   ~
that sunken treasure
hidden to a psyche
overflowing
with malediction
buried underneath
that seabed of self-pity

peace out

Words by ~Keith Alan Hamilton~

one breath at a time

sleepless nights
while turning
restlessly
upon my bed
I’m filled with
endless
thinking
~    thoughts
with memories
churning
about
my
curious mind
~    wondering
and
pondering
the vast
complexity
of stuff
within a reality
I’ve
experienced
or hope to
further
experience
as I breathe life
in and out
~    one breath
at a time

peace out

Words by    ~Keith Alan Hamilton~

I refuse to play victim

I refuse to play victim
only to have its disposition
perpetuate the ill affect
laced with the toxic
despicability of the acts
forced upon me   ~
I choose to do this
regardless   ~   of its
perceived atrocity
and my lack of any choice
or power to hinder
such a heartless
orchestration of malice
yes   ~   I have chosen
as I grew into adulthood
while battling with the trials
from inhibition to spit
rather   ~   self-determinedly
and self-defiantly into
the self-destructive eye
of victim-hood   ~   so doing
with the hope and prayer
to cast forever it useless
as well as unproductive
demeanor into that faceless
vat   ~   habitually
overflowing
with the unrecyclable
waste   ~
product of the victimizer
unlike my siblings   ~
who have chosen to swim
within the cesspool of victim
I have through much struggle
walked beyond the shadow
of its impediment
unshackled   ~   liberated
humanly as possible   ~   living
a full life the best I can

peace out

Words by ~Keith Alan Hamilton~