The INDIVIDUAL {I}/ME, appears/seems {a/s} or at least in my mind to be primarily undergoing a so-called INDIVIDUAL {I}SELF oriented
intuitive/perceptive
/perspective
experience of KNOWING,
along with learning, discerning and so on …..
Such an experience, {a/s} rooted
inside/within {i/w} a nested hierarchy SYSTEM of organized control or as I say it, my HUMAN structure/stricture body.
It {a/s}, my own particular {op} body,
also has this embodied
ebb and flow/process …..
organized/controlled network
of life/mind equals/=
cognition/emotion
with this emergent
unconscious ~ subconscious ~
primary conscious,
and ~ reflective conscious
or what I call
in its totality (body ~ life/mind),
my {I}SELF oriented ~ inner/outer {i/o} beingness.
My {op} {I}SELF oriented ~ {i/o} beingness,
its ebb and flow/process …..
organized/controlled network,
{a/s} to have these
genetic/inherent types of
trait/disposition/tendency.
For instance, it {a/s} – I have this inherent
weary/old ~ soul disposition
that’s still intrigued/persists
with this seeker/observer ~
wonderer/ponderer ~
fretter/rethinker behavior.
Especially, regarding
my ideas/opinions/views
of conceptualized
thoughts/words/creations
and so on …..
It does appear and/or seem beyond
my periods of {I}SELF –
discouragement/disillusionment –
the {I}/ME, still wants to find/learn/know.
And also, it yearns for, as if prodded
from my {op} ~
memory/data/info ~ energy/spirit
for/about
some
elusive/transient ~
resilient/adaptive ~
transitional/transformational ~
{I}SELF oriented type of intelligent progression {i/p}.
Too – as far as {i/p}, it {a/s} my {I}SELF has this undying WANT for an integrated wholeness with a more
seasoned/aged ~
mind/life discernment.
Of which, a more discerning integrated wholeness,
would have this intention
for bringing forth a more
rooted/centered/stabilized
{i/o} ~ beingness. One that would become
more and more
responsible/accountable/reliant
for/to my {I}SELF over ~ time …..
So, this {a/s} my {op} {I}SELF oriented ~ way of view despite feeling imprisoned or being held captive on earth. A planet according to the {I}/ME, {a/s} to be undergoing the dynamic/complex environmental conditions of a subjected type of IMPERMANENCE.
This IMPERMANENCE happening {i/w}
what I refer to
in totality/WHOLE (sphere/boundary)
as NATURE
with its predominantly
recurrent/cyclical
patterns or enacted systemic WAY …..
A WAY that {a/s} this ebb
and flow/process
{i/w} NATURE’S nested hierarchy SYSTEM of organized control
or systemic WAY of enacted
imprisonment or captivity –
through a WAY
of containment/restraint/influence.
And too ~ NATURE has a WAY
for CHANGE/alteration through periods
of enacted destabilization ~
disruption/breakdown/destruction.
NATURE, {a/s} to have a systemically controlled WAY
that again and again through the annuls of time
enacts reductions/ENDINGS
and even rebirths/recycling.
A WAY done to ALL that {a/s} to have a BEGINNING,
the known or yet still to be known
those of the living and nonliving (entities/aspects).
Quite possibly – NATURE and its WAY, had or still has its origination
{i/w} a systemic ebb and flow/process ~ enacted from a creative source(s) …..
….. maybe, considered by some a little bit too contemplative and long-winded ….. so, a pause ….. ~peace out~
My later years have definitely/thankfully gifted ME more available time while alive. This time has led to what {a/s} my {op} {I}SELF oriented ~ way of going about seeing/realizing/KNOWING
things/matters/issues
from {i/w} the lens of a more discerned
MEANING/significance.
Especially, about the full extent of NATURE’S enacted systemic WAY, as well as its effect
on ME/first and then others. This has brought the {I}/ME a more rooted/centered/stabilized
{i/o} ~ beingness. One that {a/s} to becoming more and more responsible/accountable/reliant
by way of putting my {I}SELF first –
rather than last as in the past
as far as my {op} ~
Individuality/identity ~
choice/freedom/mobility ~
needs/wants and support/love/attention.
Such a ME/first orientation, {a/s} to have led to a more integrated wholeness {i/w} my {I}SELF. Also, this more integrated wholeness has helped the {I}/ME to more fully realize/discern,
the advantages/disadvantages
and the influences/limitations
of/while interacting/coexisting
with other individuals
and/or collectives of individuals,
such as the living and nonliving (entities/aspects).
Too – it has helped the {I}/ME
to not only more responsively/properly
love/care for my {I}SELF
in a healthy/beneficial/sustainable way –
but prodded ME to finally do so,
before appropriately/proportionally doing so for others.
Though of late, it {a/s} the {I}/ME has had more and more of a WANT to be less
overly attached/dependent
to/on
a planet earth that undergoes
the dynamic/complex
environmental conditions of a subjected IMPERMANENCE.
Further in my later years ….. I have become
less and less
enabled/naive
to/toward NATURE
and become more and more
attached/dependent ~
responsible/accountable/reliant ~
rooted/centered/stabilized
to my ~ {I}SELF.
For instance/especially for,
my further {i/p} about/toward increasing
longevity/survival for my {op} ~ {I}SELF,
HUMAN structure/stricture body and of course others.
Also, I have this ongoing WANT for a more
authentic/ordinary ~
simplified/minimalist
safe/secure
and more freedom/mobility
{I}SELF oriented/focused
lifestyle/existence
with more and more
potentiality/possibility.
All of this – not just for on the surface of planet earth,
but also under/above
and beyond/off from it …..
My weary/old ~ soul disposition, this aspect of my memory/data/info ~ energy/spirit,
{a/s} over ~ time to have
behaviorally become
more and more bored/exasperated
and impatient/obstinate
with/toward NATURE’S
dynamic/complex
environmental conditions of a subjected IMPERMANENCE ~
that include its enacted birth
into imprisonment then death experience
of beingness/existence …..
….. maybe, considered by some a little bit too contemplative and long-winded ….. so, a pause ….. ~peace out~
In these later years, my
memory/data/info ~ energy/spirit,
{a/s} to also yearn more and more for a HUMAN ~ {I}SELF {i/o} ~ beingness type of PERMANENCE. However, even more so,
I dream/hope for a PERMANENCE that not only survives {i/w} NATURE – but too, outside/beyond its systemic totality/WHOLE
(sphere/boundary) of imprisonment or captivity …….
….. such lofty expectations, I know ~ for my INDIVIDUAL {I}SELF.
{~KAH~} ~peace out~
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