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I have not come to my own particular {op} – way of
thinking ~ viewing and acting on
things/matters/issues
overnight.
It has been years before the INDIVIDUAL {I}/ME – could even try to explain/express
my {op} –
ideas/opinions/views
to others.
Even though – I have admittedly entertained/pursued some of the following notions in my earlier years …..
I am NOT or care to become in the future
a scientist/philosopher/psychologist,
teacher/mystic/prophet
or martyr/savior.
social activist performance artist
To the {I}/ME, it appears/seems {a/s}
my early/middle years of life had suddenly been “whisked away.” Totally unprepared and quite frankly in denial of it all, the later years of life (since 2020/Covid) were upon ME. Such a realization brought more into focus my experience with {FSHD} (facioscapulohumeral muscular dystrophy) and my overactive experience with empathy. {FSHD} – its progression had accelerated to the point of forcing ME to retire early (2021). Also, in a physically expressive way – {FSHD} had reduced my mobility/freedom and energy level to where I could no longer be a social activist performance artist as once before.
Too, at this time of energy ~
reduction/depletion ….. the {I}/ME – had to more seriously consider the role my overactive empathy was contributing to my overall
body/mind/emotional
forms of exhaustion.
This as well has led to a deeper understanding of how my
hypersensitive
/over ~ functioning
empathy,
the cause and effect
of its overactivity …..
lent a hand to what
I call ~
my Abnormalities Normality
with resultant mental/physical lows
and moments/bouts
of intuitive experience,
It now {a/s},
I was far more susceptible to all this during my early/middle years …..
It wasn’t until these more challenging health issues,
along/together with overly putting
the matters/needs of others before my own (not claiming sainthood)
that I more fully
realized/appreciated
as much as possible
the timely necessity/importance of experiencing life
from a more ME/first orientation.
Instead of the behaviorally
inherent/learned
overly ME/last type of one.
I had to make the time/dedication
to KNOW/understand
who/what was actually
my {I}SELF.
For instance, SELF-distinction
from all else ….. when it comes
to Individuality/Identity ~
choice/freedom/mobility
and focusing more on
SELF-oriented needs/wants
that had been neglected throughout
my early/middle years of life …..
In my later years,
it was becoming more and more
apparent/imperative to live
my {op} – way from now on
over/before
anyone/anything else.
I had to learn/KNOW/discern
how to responsively/properly
love/care for my {I}SELF
in a healthy/beneficial/sustainable way
before appropriately/proportionally doing so again for others.
It does appear and/or seem, the {I}/ME has over ~ time,
more fully realized/discerned
the advantages/disadvantages
and the influences/limitations
of/while interacting/coexisting
with other individuals and/or collectives of individuals
(living and nonliving ~ entities/aspects).
So, with that said and out in the open …..
I DO NOT claim, everything/all
that’s contained in my
{op} ~ way of
thoughts/words/creations
about/regarding
things/matters/issues
has in someway originated entirely on my own and is somehow detached from the influence of others. Minds/thinkers like Leonardo da Vinci, David Bohm, Carl Jung, Fritjof Capra, Humberto Maturana, Francisco Varela, James Lovelock, Lynn Margulis, Ilya Prigogine, Jacques Vallée, J. Krishnamurti, Rudolf Steiner, Edgar Cayce, Ayn Rand, Timothy Leary, Robert Anton Wilson, Bruce Lee and others have/still inspire my ponderings …..
However, I am NOT some mindless,
unthinking/unquestioning
follower/believer
and/or
advocate of/for
any one
collective/group/mob
that adheres to without waiver
a belief/ideology/doctrine
and/or religion/viewpoint,
as a way of KNOWING
about things/matters/issues.
Especially if –
what’s said to be KNOWN
as a collective/group/heard or particular
order/sect/cult has become elevated/cast
and/or held out in the divine/eternal light
of certainty/truth
that smells akin with closed mindedness
and diminishes the validity/credibility
of the contribution/input
that’s based on Individual experience
as a pertinent alternative/way
of/for KNOWING and to bring about change/adjustment…..
Of course, such a measured standard of mine would be applicable to my {op} ~ way of KNOWING and like everyone else, I am inescapably
subjected/inhibited
by NATURE’S WAY or enacted hierarchical SYSTEM of organized control. This control SYSTEM would also include the influence/limitations imposed on ME
inside/within the structure/stricture
of HUMAN collective/social ~ interactions,
and too – my own genetic/inherent
structure/stricture ~ body.
All of these factors/conditions tend to have sway/influence over my ability for KNOWING and the further development of intuition, common sense and discernment. A way of KNOWING that {a/s}
hindered/blinded by what’s thought KNOWN, the not yet fully KNOWN and what’s not KNOWN as of yet ~ along with contributive environmental factors like time and circumstance …..
After such consideration, quite possibly, what the {I}/ME may come to KNOW in the future
as far as – things/matters/issues
might in somewhat/someway be different than I once knew and/or thought. Therefore, what I think to KNOW at present, just might not be so “set in stone” …..
….. maybe, considered by some a little bit too contemplative and long-winded ….. so, a pause ….. ~peace out~
My career experiences have come from growing up in a family business, afterward the profession of sales and marketing, then after that being
an investigator/researcher/analyst – case manager
and protection/security expert around the globe …..
Such experiences have helped to hone and craft
my {op} – way of thinking ~
viewing and acting on
things/matters/issues.
They have helped ME
to far better discern
if it {a/s}
time to KNOW when to pull my head out of the so-called “rabbit hole”
of obscurity/conspiracy/fantasy
and wishful/hopeful types of notions/thoughts
that endlessly wander/lead to nowhere …..
Also, in my later years – and mainly due to the further
development/uniqueness of my Word Imagery Style, I have chosen to no longer use my previous publisher because of formatting issues.
Instead, the {I}/ME
has pursued
my {op} – way/method
of self-publishing, marketing
and website creation/development.
Too – the {I}/ME has chosen to abbreviate my writing name ~Keith Alan Hamilton~ to the nickname {~KAH~}. {~KAH~} sounds like a crow speaks when it’s pronounced.
{~KAH~} ~peace out~
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